Today is September 10th, 2008, and it was a very good day.

First off, my beta from Monday, September 8th, was 33dp6dt, and the number was 12,212. To a lot, that is a low number, BUT, I did a lot of research and found that you really can not say what is low and what is high, every pregnancy is different, and every woman is different. But, my research showed that I wasn't the only one.. There were a couple of ladies from my forums that had a beta after their 30dp, and some of their numbers were in the 9 thousands, and some higher. There was even a lady who had her beta done at 28dp, and her number was about 13K, and SHE WAS HAVING TRIPLETS!! lol. Anyways, thats that update.

Today, however, I went to Albuquerque for my 2nd ultrasound, and the findings were gorgeous. The fetus is still measuring small (about 6 weeks), but its a lot larger than it was last week, meaning, IT GREW!! You can look at the previous photo from last week, above. Heres the new photo from today:


Also, even before it was pointed out to everyone in the room, I seen it.. and sure enough, the Dr. confirmed, THERE WAS A HEARTBEAT!!!!!!

As soon as he said it, everyone behind me (including, Decateur, and C & S) all let out a gasp, as they were holding their breath. C even began to cry! Happy tears of course!

My estimated due date is : April 24, 2009, I am supposed to be about 8 weeks tomorrow.

Thank you to all who kept their hopes up, and said their prayers for us. Yes we're relieved today, but we also know that there is still a chance of disaster, as there always is in the first trimester, but, right now, were all very happy, relieved, and excited about what may come!

Today is September 23, 2008. I had a Dr's appointment in Albuquerque yesterday, September 22nd. We were all feeling a bit nervous, but kind of on our high horses at the same time. We went in, and proceeded with the ultrasound. The doctor didn't say anything for what seemed like an hour, but it was probably only about 3 minutes. He then said, "I'm not seeing the heartbeat", no one said a word, he kicked us off our horses. He kept trying, turning, moving, pushing, and we could all see the little bean, but, no flicker. He said, it was measuring just a tad larger than it was 2 weeks ago, at the confirmed heartbeat appoinment.

Everyone was walked into the conference room, while I got myself dressed. I walked in there, and C was crying so hard, I had to look away. As bad as it may sound, I almost wish that she would have held it in. I feel really bad. I feel like I hurt her. I feel like its my fault that she doesn't get that brand new bundle of joy, that she was already in love with, she said.

I know, I didn't hurt her. I know its not my fault. But, its just the way I feel. I know there was nothing more I could have done. I did everything I was supposed to do. Took all the medication, went to all the appointments, didn't do anything stupid, like drink or smoke, or anything else your not supposed to do while pregnant. Didnt even have intercourse but one or two times, and it was prob. a month ago!

Anyways, I am staying on all of my medication which include; Progesterone in Oil shot (2cc) once a day, Prometrium (2oomg) 2x a day (newly added, since last week. my progesterone levels were 23 when they like to see a 30 or more), Vivelle dot (patches)4 every other day (that are giving me a rash like no other!), low dose aspirin, and prenatal pills. I stay on the medication until October 1st.

October 1st is when my D&C has been scheduled. Its at 11:15am. I am to be there 2 hours in advance, and wont be released until about 3-4pm. We will be staying in a hotel room that evening. The cramping and bleeding can be pretty bad, I hear.

D&C:
Dialation and curettage is commonly performed following miscarriage or abortion in cases where the uterus fails to fully empty its content. The D stands for dilation, which means enlarging. Curettage (the C) means scraping. Together, this procedure involves expanding or enlarging the entrance of a woman's uterus so that a thin, sharp instrument can scrape or suction away the lining of the uterus and take tissue samples. Today, the procedure is routine and considered safe. It is minor surgery performed in a hospital or ambulatory surgery center or clinic.